Welcome to; "BLURZ REBELLION", Let me explain, the, TRUTH! I AM BLUR!!! I plan on purposely sending my self to hell by suicide by skydiving into an active/erupting volcano in 20 years on my 55th birthday, to cause an uprising against Lucifer and all evil there, crumbling hell from the inside out, tearing all the walls down, defeating Lucifer and any other evil there, releasing all the lost souls there for #REDEMPTION in Heaven. So all I need is everybody's prayers over the next 20 years, to April 7th, 2036! The plan is unfolding, I am going to convert to every religion; the good, the bad, and the ugly, on documentary, and finish the documentary, with skydiving into a volcano, ensuring that I enter this doorway to hell, without selling my soul, I BELONG TO GOD!!!!!!!!!!!! And I will be a conduit, that all the beings, angels, saints, deity's, and any other beings from, Spirit Realm, will ally with me, against the dark forces, that we are all tired, of evil, taking, stealing, polluting, torturing, corrupting our human souls. It is time to end this, bloody, senseless, WAR! What I need from you, is to have a completely open mind, and for you not to fear ANYTHING, not even GOD. This is the COURAGE, that is meant to lay within the human spirit. That we don't not yet know, TRUTH? An open mind, that for the next 20 years, if I can survive this, and am meant to travel this, PATH, I will fearlessly, test all waters that can be tested, to find out, TRUTH? My friend, born on the same birth date as me, committed suicide... would you stand by idle and allow people you love to remain in hell, without doing something about it? ove my dead body over my dead, dying, tormented soul, will I stand by and let, ANYONE, OR ANYTHING, IN THIS UNIVERSE, HARM THE ONES THAT I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And I committed suicide at age 17, and was dead in my angel moms arms, by the time the ambulance came, I was dead(my poor mom=so sorry). We both lost our lives that day, never to be REDEEMED to this day :(........ And out of body, I lost my soul that day, for 8 years, I walked earth, feeling soulless, till my last two deaths, I went out of body, sucked into the portal of hell, and the next day, the portal of HEAVEN, I came back, *I AM BLUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*, REBORN, ETERNAL SPIRITUAL BEING SELF!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS MY STORY! EMBRACE GOD WITH ALL OF YOUR BEING! YOU MUST! THANX ;)
"THE GOOD PSYCHOPATH" by BLUR come on this is me? I even have the same size type cross that I grip in my hands all the time and grip in my hands as I go to sleep praying psychotically? I AM A PSYCHOPATH!!! but not any of your typical documented clinical psychotherapeutic DSM-V version of any type of psychology definition or categories or textbook this category of; PSYCHOPATH does not exist (yet) I have EXTREME EMPATHY for all the suffering life forms and the INNOCENT and utmost SYMPATHY I AM VIGILANTE! I do not have violent tendencies toward any of my fellow humans my PATH is PSYCHO (do you understand?) I AM PSYCHO FOR GOD!!!!!!!!!! I am the utmost type of; PSYCHOPATH, that will go to hell and defeat Lucifer crumbling hell from the inside out setting FREE all the LOST SOULS for REDEMPTION in HEAVEN THAT'S what I am
I'm totally; GooGoo for Gaga! Why don't we kick this off with, "The best way to be unpredictable is to not even be able to predict your self."
A COMPLETE TRANSFORMATION TOOK PLACE WITHIN HER?
I relate to Lady Gaga, soooooooooooooooooo much And when I say that I "relate", it's a feeling of cyclical change? As an #Aries Aries are rarely like other Aries, but some things are certain? As Aries, you are either 100% disciplined and obsessed, or you are completely self defeating and self destructive. And back in Brooklyn, New York, Nobody believed in Lady Gaga, and, =BAMMMM! they created a; *MONSTER*
I plan on becoming a; *MONSTER*, too!
A GLOBAL, MAD, MONSTER, OF, THE, MASSES!
My very own kind of, *MONSTER*, of course. No two; *MONSTERS*, can be the, SAME!
Let's start this off by saying, "I WANT YOU" "MY SOUL MATE" "I WANT YOU" "WHEN CAN WE BE TOGETHER?" I will build an empire for you, and I will build it, QUICKLY! We'll be King and Queen together, saying to the world;
Lady Gaga Have D.I.D Too (Male Person)?
Takes a mastery of dissociation to really become LIBERATED so much so that you seem ALIEN to the rest of the human species
and many people won't realize the PAIN that Lady Gaga takes and has been thru and the PAIN threshold PAIN is part of her TRAINING of ASCENSION and SPIRITUALITY to master the BODY and overcome IT I can see it in her face because I recognize my own and mine was way WORSE I've literally been thru HELL
What people don't understand is how brutally painful it is to be Gaga? But I see it, because I am in the beginning stage of tasting the same MADNESS
I will have to face the fact that I have to walk this painful path ALONE but I say again, "I WANT YOU SO BAD", this lifestyle is not for the faint-of-heart, and if you can't join me, I understand. Do you want me or not? There is time to find out, if we are *SOUL MATES* or not? I would need to be sure, too.
Because there is no going, HALF WAY.......... Lady Gaga didn't go, HALF WAY..........
because, I AM GOING TO HELL, and I will defeat the DEVIL, there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for GOD and all HUMANKIND for all the people SUFFERING and all the INNOCENT SOULS LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for all the SOULS OF SUICIDE because I am one??????? (if you don't know that)
When you have your creative intelligent design laid out before you from GOD, you have to go, ALL THE WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LET'S DO THIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!(CONQUER) LET'S KICK ASSSSSSSSSSS
OH MY GOD - I just got a serious craving for breast milk????????(4:28 PM 5/28/16) After I saw this photo on facebook
Heyyyyy, I just made a full fledged commitment to document the rest of my life on Earth, no matter what, as raw and honest as humanly possible. I am trying to make sense of all this human stuff? I LOVE GOD, SOOOO MUCH!!!! But I'm human, and have never had love, or a girlfriend, and I'm a late bloomer, and just becoming a man now, and am praying so hard for soul mate love, but when you find soul mate love, you get married, have children, maybe drink some of your lovers breast milk, =WHY NOT????????????????????????????????????
You can be my mommy You know who you are Any time There's no rush So I guess, I'm searching for my soul mate/mommy, I guess I'm REAL sick, but at least I have the BALLS, to admit it. Wow! I can already see that this commitment is going to be a CHALLENGE, cause I'm trying to understand life, and go thru positive changes, and all of a sudden, I end up feeling more horny, THAN EVER?????? This weather change, cause this weather temperature, too hot, has me, IN HEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm craving LOVE, cause I've never had it, and I'm desiring SOUL MATE. And when we find each other, we will EMPOWER each other, and it will be US vs the world, and WE will CONQUER, and build an EMPIRE TOGETHER! I know who's milk I want? But I'll probably never have her, but maybe she will read this, and start to lactate from imaging feeding me, her delicious nectar? She can squirt it into my mouth OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to take a cold shower. But why us humans have to be ashamed about how we feel? If we don't get to talk about them, and express them without being crucified, or exiled from our own species, which most people have similar struggles with self, but are too afraid to ever admit such things? Ok, cold shower and SLEEP... ...and a whole bunch of praying... ,,,and repenting for my thoughts.
I'm so sick of this Cause maybe sharing this on the internet Makes me feel guilt and shame of my self But I really have been on a quest To be completely liberated And not care what anybody thinks of me Because GOD loves me So much And that's what really matters And I have struggled Since a child And will not bow down And be afraid to speak my mind
I was getting really down about this post, but then I saw these two gifs, and remembered
I'm a comedian, I'm allowed to feel this stuff, read 'em and weep, BAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH! (yupp, Sigmund Freud was right - I'm a 100% momma's boy, which if you are a psychologist/therapist, would understand, this completely explains this - I get it - totally)
I'm not doing anything about it, I don't do that, I did have a problem with masturbation, but I've been doing really good with that, given that up, made it almost four months without breaking, then a recent break, but no sex, I don't do that meaningless stuff, I see that destroy people, and guilt, and, shame, I really just desire soul mate love, so when I get like this, could be the weather change,
physiological, biological, being at that age, where people fall in love, get married, have kids, could be that, DEFINITELY, but also, anxiety, stress, pressure, mania, repression, never got to, hormones, pain and struggle of LIFE, depression, morbidity, psychosis, and I just wait out the horniness, just like I wait out the loneliness, and try to let it pass. It will pass, right?
I'm struggling with this so bad, and it's the bottomless black hole pit of a void called; "LACK OF LOVE", I never had love! And I fight with everything I've got, and am so close to GOD when i don't feel these feelings, but it's so difficult to not have these urges, and like a tsunamic wave, you just have to, LET IT PASS!
Oh well, I think it is passing, because I blogged about it, blogging is therapy for me.
