sad as HELL

I was up

Then I feel into a, deep, dark, sad sleep

I couldn't get out of bed

And in my dream I saw you

And in my dream it seemed you weren't maybe upset with me?

I don't even know what I did anymore, I just tried to love

Then I saved a spider in my dream

And then that spider chased me and bit me on the hand

And then I just woke up

I feel so horrible

I don't ever want to feel like this again

I can't just ever care about someone and have them in my life

I have to lose everyone; family, friends, etc.

I'm too beat up to ever feel anything ever again

It feels

Where's all my strength

Cause it all just dissipated 

My life-force went down the drain

My candle just burnt out

My bridge just collapsed
My knees are weak
And my shattered lost soul quivers  

I just want to hibernate from people

Forever

In my lonely cave

Come out to gather what I need because I have no choice my time is not up yet

But my will is being stripped away

Emotions have become my enemy

But to not have emotions

I refuse to be their empty shell

I will not let the world do that to me

Love is murder

Because my heart was just killed