VANISH

realizing how people truly feel about you
the pains of being psychic
and at the top of the pinnacle
the pique
the precipice
the woman that i fell in love with don't care about me at all
so everything 
under
beneath that
is fading away
falling apart
too

the only dignified thing to do
at this point
is just
VANISH

i'm haunted by every face

there's nothing to say
people hate me
anyway
i knew people hated me

i don't exist anymore

this has turned into a nightmare
and no-one will understand this pain
has turned into a horror show
going has become a trauma
i literally can't go any more
but no matter what i say
won't matter
so it's just better that people just be angry at me
then

just forget i ever existed

i need to be forgotten

people will not understand
that you have to go now
and there can't be any contact

cause people will not understand
that this is PAIN
this has become pure AGONY
i can not stay
i have to leave

to go with a slim chance 
that maybe she cares
is
nonsense
she doesn't
and
i'm
pathetic
i will never open up again
great job
the one head case that got away
that you let slip under your finger-nails
i hope

now 
i walk away from love
forever
never to
ever
want love
ever
again

the
book
is closed

and no other book may be ever opened
my story might have ended
it feels
over

there is no way
to say goodbye

this has tore me apart

the harsh truth is she never cared to begin with